This blog was created as a place of accountability.  A place where I could keep myself accountable to live a life that thrives.  This word "thrive" has been swirling around in my head for years.  Thriving...flourishing...living without regret is something that I have longed to experience on a daily basis.  In the past, though, I have allowed myself to feel like I was a victim and that this kind of living was only for other people.   When I think of this word, I don't think of perfection or never having problems but of living life to the fullest, no matter what the situation is or what life has brought me.  About experiencing each moment and seeing the beauty in every day.

 

Several years ago, after giving birth to my fourth son, I began to deal with chronic pain. What started as what I thought was a sinus infection has led to year after year of constant head pressure.  A type of pressure that just wouldn't let up...no matter what I tried.  It has become my constant companion. It is there when I wake up and with me every moment of the day. As a result of this, I moved into a dark place in life, one in which I never thought I would reside. My life became consumed with just wanting to feel better. I cried out to the Lord only to feel as if my pleas fell on deaf ears. I have felt overwhelmed, angry, hopeful, exhausted and every other emotion in between. It has been a journey spiritually, medically, emotionally and relationally to say the least.  

 

Through this the Lord spoke to my heart. It was so clear that even if I were to wake up tomorrow completely healed, thriving would not be an automatic. Thriving in life is a choice that we make every single day of our lives. Thriving is not dependent on my outside circumstances, it is a place I find deep inside...a willingness to not play the victim any longer. So this little blog is my comeback. My comeback story where I share my struggles, my wins, my thoughts and my experiences and even what I am doing day to day. A place where I long to live a life that isn't perfect but beautiful in it's own way. I want to THRIVE, not just on my good days but on every day.  And I hope through my openness that my story can be a source a hope for you. I have come to realize that we all have a battle in which we may be in the midst. Yours may not be health related, like mine, but it is no less powerful in your life. My prayer is that my experience and my ongoing journey would be an inspiration for someone else to keep going and to make the choices to thrive each and every day.  Thank you for coming along on this ride with me.  Blessings!! 

 

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Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sister, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let Perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  James 1:2-4